so here goes my one and only atypical post. bear with me please

                                                           STAR WARS

       Cameron Eamon awakened in extreme pain.  It hurt so bad he could not move anything except his 

swollen  eyes. A woman was in the room, not far from the bed he was laying in.

       "You are awake?"she asked, "Ill get the doctor."

        Cameron said nothing, trying to remember what had led him to wherever this was. A moment

later a man walked into the room.

         "Keep him on the pain meds so as to keep him comfortable." the doctor ordered. Cam winced as the

hypodermic slid into his vein and then everything became grey.

 

making the best of a very bad situation

 january is a bleak month after the holidays . seasonal affective disorder or sad is at its all time high or low

pun intended. so you sit around like a crazed monkey spanking the hell out of it and even that becomes

boring after a while.. get creative , find someone of a like mind and energy level and do that thing 

maybe it will be more fun  than you realize, bake a cake celebrate when in doubt mas

the worms crawl in

 so, what happens now that the first attempt failed ? more of the same im afraid. weell what did youexpect to happen?  was it what you wanted it to be?   no more free lunches for senators and representatives ..the system is broke and can't be fixed . i didnt support the coup and i m sad it came down to so much death and sadness.. ij was just plain wrong 

ravings of a madman...  

there is nothing of substance left for us anymore. they say when you die you  are supposed to walk into the light, the light draws you into what .the fires of hell can shine so bright. enough fire can make it seem alright, but i doubt it..because i just dont know for certain.  i've faced death so many times now and each time its been a mixcd jumble of thoughts and feelings . so i don't know but there is something that doesn't make sense that if there is a god, wheree is he in our hour of need??a lot of old stories and tales, but i cant seem to buy a cart full of apples that i cant see..., sight unseen... 

little did i know...

more of the sane

hi its me again... i am not giving up. im thinking about life and all the twists and turns it throws at us...
there in, if you are smart , you gain wisdom. if you dub't then you might be screwed.. no wonder the neanderthals didnt have the brains to survive...

history repeats

corona virus.... scary thought, but take a look at our history about plagues of the past few thousand
years... plague of frogs, fleas ,boils, and the black plague (bubonic) and pneumonic plague which
a lot of people forget about it... then you have the small pox and measles, yellow fever , dengue
fever , undulant fever, ebola, and now covid 19 , the spanish flu  swine flu , my god its a mess out there. i recall an event in colonial williamsburg,va years where a group of inebriated locals  rolled down
duke of gloucester street in an oxcart calling out "throw out your dead" a revival of the black plague
years that swept the world...just thinking about things

im sorry i have to apologize to anyone who needs it right now. i do not support these killings by the police all over the world.. the problem we are seeing cannot be solved. the police crack heads, and although theree are many police and first responders that are basically good people there will always be
those who slip through the cracks that should never be given a badge and a gun or a baton. back in the
old days police dealt with racial problems by killing and lynching troublesome people of color..
And i say this not to create a much larger problem, but we are doomed to repeat history.again and
again because we are imperfect beings, we will never get it right. thats not how the human psyche works folks. we all want to change things for the better for the future for our kids and grandkids,
that is human nature, but what also is human nature is the belief that we can make possitive change
to those things we dont like . the problem lies in the way we go about making these changes, because we all believe our way is the best way,and no one is willing to give an inch one way or another...

It has to be done this way! that in turn causes others to react in their own interests.. racism has been around since noah was a  messcook and its  not going to be stopped , probably not ever . its wrong , yes, beating a man down into submission has always been the way, or some other type of torture.
having our lord crucified is an example ...the ultimate torture for the time and it put the fear in people
and the terror it brings. thats what the tactic is to take power away from one people and have it taken by someone in order to keep a man his family, his people his nation his race and religious beliefs from being dominant ...its been that way since recess out on the playground  and it will always be with
us all the rest of history.. we cant fight it because its incurable. and its human nature. so we have to decide how to fix something that cant be fixed...we can only treat the symptoms..if at all
but we will never cure the disease itself.. love may conquer all but there isn't much love going around right now , and right in the middle of a pandemic too boot...