im back ... its now thursday at 1206 am. lets talk turkey .

im planning a trip in april around the10th through the 15th, to the birkhead mountain area not far from here. I'll set up camp, get things together and go hunting for turkey on the opening day. birkhead mountain is a lovely place in the uwharrie national forest . its really wilderness , wild and untamed and i have spent many a day and night there during deer season the past few years. i like to hunt. it gets me out of house and out in the fresh air, and it takes my mind off the everyday mundane things. my worries seem to disappear when im out there , even if i don't see anything, its worth the effort. yes im still sick, but ive decided that i 'm not going to give up yet. while im there i can pan for gold, and dig for rubies if i am so inclined, i once found a few arrowheads near hannahs creek, much to my surprise . ive already started loading up my gear, just a few things i may need to
get me through a 5 day trip. food, water, and sundries..

my people were pioneers, a lot of folks cant make that claim. my family headed out west settling in the midwest, amidst indians and unknown dangers in the pre 1800s . my family tree tells
me that my first ancestors here in this country came to virginia and immediately moved west after the revolutionary war was over {the Ford side of the family} . the other side of the family were fleeing the potato famine in eire (Ireland) later in the mid 1800s. I remember writing the story of the pioneers in school when i was in living in new york and my teacher didn't believe a word of it. sorry teacher, i wasn't a fresh off the boat, looking for a place to hang my hat kind of kid, i was an original american, with roots as far back as the revolutionary war, my people fought and died for life liberty and the pursuit of happiness. that was more than any of my class mates could say. one of my ancestors died in a battle during the french and indian war. a brother of my direct descendant it seems.... my point is i have a claim to this country, a claim to this heritage and a claim to its future.
it's my birthright, and bought and paid for with blood sweat and tears.

so i guess you can see now why im so angry, so bitter and disillusioned about things going on.

a long time ago the railroads built up and joined the east and the west. the railroad company set two trains and moved them across the country back in the 60s to commemorate the meeting of east and west. i was at the ceremony and held the gold spike as they drove it in . i was a part of the history , just another kid , but i was the one they picked.because i was there , i had the birthright,
the heritage and the history to be a part of it. my picture was in a lot of papers across the country
the next day. my name was there. i was the kid holding the gold railroad spike. i was proud to be an american that day and for many days to come. i think i was five years old at the time. and i'll tell you something, I made my parents proud that day. now look at me... over fifty, no job no hope, sick, and the worst thing of it all, my heart is broken to see my country in this sort of shape.

America needs to wake up, dust itself off and get back into the game . We've got to pull together as a nation. there are people out there that want us dead, and they are not, I repeat , not going to
stop until they try to succeed in killing us. As ugly as that might sound, its the truth. If you don't
believe me, ask osama what he wants to do to america . he wants us all to die. We need elected officials who have backbones , We need a president who thinks before he acts, and by the way mr. obama, you really should have thought it through before you handed over millions of our tax dollars to AIG and the other greedy bums in our midst. and the appropriations bill you passed, full of pork
bacon and lard, another mistake. You've failed us twice now mr president. if you were working for my company, i'd fire you as being incompetent ... but that's just me. i didn't vote for you so i can't blame myself . You are accountable now. but i'll have to be honest about it. i don't think you are wise enough to make the right decisions . you haven't made any good choices that i can see so far. why should you change????